Good morning y'all!
Yesterday I took my girls on a little "field trip". Mima (my mom) came and picked us up and we decided to play the left and right game. Do you ever play that? You know, should I turn left or should I turn right. Until you find somewhere you have never been. Its just a fun adventure. (My mom and I have played this game since I was a kid) Afterall we live in a somewhat country area.. We drove down roads lined with corn fields and farms. Down long back roads in the middle of no where.
My mind got to wandering, and day dreams got the best of me.
Do you ever wonder how you got where you are? How one different decision could have completely altered your life as you know it?
I don't live with regrets, In fact most of the hard lessons I've experienced in life were worth the knowledge I gained.
However, dreams I had as a kid or goals I've longed for came flooding back to me today.
You see, I was that little girl who would cut out horse pictures in magazines and hang them on every quarter inch of my walls. I would circle feed buckets, boots and saddles in magazines for the horse I didn't even own. I dreamed of working out west on a ranch. Living in the middle of nowhere, with wide open spaces, mountains, creeks and horses. Having bonfires on crisp fall nights. This was a dream that followed me not only through childhood.
In fact, after I graduated highschool I became a farm hand at a 32 stall horse farm. I worked my way from cleaning the barn, turning out horses and mending fences. To training horses and children riders. I have never loved a job more! It was my happy place, my escape, my therapy.
I would lay down in the stall next to my sweet Sable girl and read for what felt like hours tucked up to her as she lay in a bed of shavings. I would bareback Ivy in the pasture letting her graze in the field as I soaked up the sunshine. I learned so much and owe so much of that to my incredible 87 year old boss♡ Thats right, an 87 year old single woman farmer. Taught me everything I know when it comes to farms and horses!
I thought, well, now I am well on my way. I know horses, I know farm work, my dream is within reach.
But life happens, you know how One decision starts a ripple of events. I met a guy, I had children, I went to college, I started a different life.. A life I absolutely LOVE!!! My children are my entire world, I love my friends and the little town I'm in. But everytime I see a corn field, long back roads with nothing for miles, the majestic mountains with the hint of a chimney burning in the distance. I can't help but think of how much I long for that ranch life. To live out west, enjoying nature and all its glory! No more street lights and traffic, no more high rises and busy malls. But rather, clear skies full of stars, fields of wild life and the sound of birds.
Call it nostalgia or maybe just a childhood dream. But today I got lost in wonder.
Do you ever feel like that? Think back to what you thought your life would look like when you were a kid. Heck, what you thought it would look like when you were a teenager. Isn't it crazy how life changes?
Maybe someday when the kids are grown, I will have my farm. My kids can visit me with their children and enjoy all that the west and the great outdoors have to offer.
But for now, I am where god wants me. Maybe perhaps something fantastic is right around the corner, who knows? All I know is that I am happy, My family is happy and that is really all I can ask for!
So I'm going to go make some coffee, snuggle my babies and enjoy what amazing blessings I've been given♡
(Below is a picture of my Daughters old pony "Latte"...they were quite the mane stylists lol)
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